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Haunted
I wonder if you still read these. I know if you see this, you'll know who it's for. Last night I had another nightmare. My face was falling off, were falling out, bones jutting out. I was falling apart right before my own eyes. I never shed a tear during any of the visits but I guess it stuck with me, the feeling of being . And I still have the scars,improperly healed bones and bills to remind me. I don't know what's worse, the body annihilation dreams or the dreams in which I continuously the times you pinned me down and f*cked me as I tried to free myself, "no" was always an open invitation to you. In these dreams, sometimes I struggle and sometimes I just take it. You're the reason that I look over my shoulder constantly, the reason I flinch when someone brushes by me. I hate it, I hate feeling like a weakling. I was never afraid of anything, I used to walk alone in the forest at night.. Just me and my music. I still do wander the world alone, but now I have this nagging sense of paranoia. I feel that everyone is out to get me, especially men. I can't believe you were sick enough to profess your love to me time and time again while holding me hostage with manipulation, threats and . You don't love anyone, not even yourself. You are a miserable creature. Although you're no longer here, physiy, your demons still linger.
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Dominant presence needed. 
re: Just wanted to get to know you
What do you mean? Interaction is two people having an actual conversation. You might try it. Although someone to laugh at your jokes ladies wants sex tonight Mabie is just an ego boost. That is not getting to know anyone. Sounds complicated. 
